I wanted to write about misapprehension.
The guy I liked. He must have balked at a man liking him. The thing was. It wasn’t so much that I wanted to sleep with him. It was more like I just wanted to spend time with him. I really liked his personality. Just kind of laidback with a subversive sense of humour.
Now he probably just feels uncomfortable around me. I have stopped texting him per his request.
Sometimes I think “sex” whatever that is gets in the way.
I think I am searching for friendship. Someone to play chess with, read books with. Go on massive pan European train journeys with.